Class party was fabulous,well after loads of stress organizing it.making calls,orders,opinions,class funds.likes/dislikes.hurm.enjoyed every second of it~and we(maymun,lai hoong,maisara,nazreen,and me) took pics.lots and lots of it.wee~maymun was the luckiest,she *ehem*got the a pic with her idol.

last year with all the seniors.and i will miss my former scandals.wee~PMR here I come!oh wells,i argued with Azim again,Fight number 90192897387457654165483456(not actual figure) but by far the worst.former beau,and current beau.both hot tempered.well,it really proves"fight fire with fire,you'll get burnt".

the days of public affection has long gone.and who the hell uses 'lyke' to replace 'like'..gosh.so "remp-it"get better word(s) babe.

and i just learned to dislike being the ex-girlfriend who interferes with her ex-boyf probs.
*notes:whether he asked for help or not,don't interfere.it will most probably spark anger and fury.that happen-ED.In more severe cases,jealousy,and misunderstanding.so don't interfere your ex-boyf probs with his current girl.unless,if you're trying to be foxy.

and please please please don't try to analyse other people's problems as it might lead to misinterpretation.

thank god,the super friend a.k.a his saviour,my saviour,my Sis Farah came to the rescue.well.literally came to the rescue.oh dear,problem be gone.please?SPM is coming up.and im expecting him to focus.

maybe really.there's something critically wrong with me.i should totally stop sulking and be more positive.and im having fever.byebye.

if you're not the one.its okay.tired.exhausted.hope he would at least listen.he didnt ask,'whats the matter'?i was hoping he would ask.he didn't.so,he did not.End of story~

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i would just blabber everything here.its not the end of the world.yeah,but he didnt bother.what effort?what words?i dont think i heard anything.must be something wrong with me.or maybe its not me.just us.im so tired.theres a sudden hand in of history project,which btw,has got me a little upset, reason being that Andrew is having drama competitions(all the best).well,its my problem.

and the class party?collecting funds and so far,we raised $329.7 more peeps to go.exhausting.had to do plannings.worries,will things work out?i dont like last minute work.i dont like feeling so down.i dont like crying.but i am,in front of the comp,hoping he is beside me,at least.but he is not.

and there's exam.great.additional stress along side all that extras."nugde me" he says.he ignored me.so why should i double nudge?will it make a difference?bottom-line is,maybe he doesn't try to understand me.or is it me?who expects so much?or is he just telling me sweet lies,just like what mum says?i don't think anymore tears are worth crying for this.

move on,babe.there's always ups and downs.but more downs than ups.is this worth fighting for?i should be worrying over exams,i am,just not panic about it,or overly worried.I have to work really hard for this end-of-year exam.

the rest of the problems,i think i don't want to discuss it.i feel hurt,and maybe he does too,my harsh words.i'll throw this feeling,this problem,and maybe him into the box.I'll pick my treasures later.

have fun and enjoy the process of completing history project:)

*girls love expressing themselves with words,and therefore i thank blogger as it acts as a journal.though,much secrets,are to no avail,unable to be kept safely,and therefore is no longer a secret.i dont plan to have any secrets.its all free to go.

adios.im throwing my love away,for a moment.

Subjects for Phase 1 end-of year exam,finally done.
im disappointed with my performance with maths. i dont think i fair well enough.haven't been updating blog for quite sometime.im tired.

crappy math formulae giving,which btw,confuses me by whole lot.so i did not depend on it.i guess our own effort will always be the best.2 weeks more to phase 2 end-of-year exam.time flies.and before we know it,its the end of 2009.

okay,i guess short updates will do.adios.
ah yes, 4months.

okay.Thanks Azim for the pressie(s)! and to all whom wished me.Never felt this happy before.whilst that,exams are coming up.Secondary years seems to be pass real quick!more like flying.Manoj once said,"time is ours.[i cant remember what else]" either way,time is ours.just that,i can't control how fast the pace goes!i would love to slow down just a little.Homeworks.Tuitions.Piano.Project.Exams.Well,ive got no excuses to why i shouldnt work hard and smart.

if i fail or land myself a 'C' again,it'll be disappointing.I had never got a C in my life before!until last 2months during assessment.a nice C for bahasa malaysia.

♥♥thank you to all of these amazing people for the bday wish!:

Azim
Mum
Amirah
Faez
Sis Farah
Li Qin
Dashini
Ghayathri
Amirah Syazwani
Bashirah
Sara Imanina
Fatin Nabila K'
Maymun(her very interesting intro to happy bday)
Maisara
Afifah
Jo E
Pei Qian
Nadia Shakiera
Lai Hoong
Al Arif
Nadia Majid
May En
Shahira
Menaga & Milashini
Nazreen
Amanda
Rivitra
Cikgu Mel!
Azyyati
hyper 2 Gaharu for the great bday song!
Hong Wen
Tharsaini
Avitra
Jun Pun
Frauline

♥Good Luck with the upcoming exams people!!♥

Fine..i am a loser.whatever:) i don't care what other people says.Im on the brink of death.Okay? so,whatever.I am going to die.but,if im still not dead,then,you're running short of luck.Because,you people want me dead and gone right?

hello.
seems like theres no sunshine.
where is it?

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exam exam exam.i need to study! i should be studying right now,i just can't find my internal peace.haiyaiiaayai.shirene,study!

im stressed out.too many problem.emm.i wonder what causes it...am totally upset.depressed.unhappy.and I want it to be over.don't like it that way.feels terrible.

Hershey's Kisses taste really good.hahah.chocolates~ prepare for nose bleed.
adios,i wanna rot and die from studying.grrrg.
i love you<3(random)

school's close due to H1N1.i wonder, sometimes,i question all my decision. Should I continue with kawad?or quit.i suck in marching.and the whole i-cant-do-it vibe is overpowering me.i hate it,the fact that i try so hard, and i still cant kawad.I don't know why,week after week.No signs of improvement in kawad.

Marching seems like a dude's thing you know.Im all spoilt,yadda yadda.
And,something keeps playing in my mind.

'Did I make the wrong decision?'

for joining kawad?
-i don't know.i feel like quitting.

i was browsing through myspace.My old mail's and comments.I feel like I should have listened to her.Should I?or should I not?I mean like,adults and people older than me are usually right.

or My heart knows the best?truth is,my heart doesnt know anything.everything seems strange.No aliens in sight,things seem so quiet.i keep complaining.humans complain all the time!

I appreciate:

a) my mom.
b)for the shelter provided
c)for all the love.
d) i have amirah and faez
e)at least, i have the opportunity to attend school.
f)i am happy with myself:)

i need to remind myself how lucky i am,instead of complaining and whining.toodles~

this week,hasn't been well.marching sucks.all of sudden that weird kawad teacher asked for my number,to 'assist' me with kawad.never quite liked teachers who'd asked for phone number.so friggin weird and scary.if it was a female teacher,its okay.not male teachers,its unappropriate.

emm,im in tears again.gosh.hate this week.maybe i should stop this whole thing.quit marching.quit this relationship.just focus on studies.done.maybe im not capable of so many things.especially marching.got my emotions real down.

and if ever that teacher calls,i don't think i want to pick my phone up.its not like i need desparate help..i don't.so happen,yesterday,things didn't go well.God knows why..i don't know why.I just hate giving people my number.it feels uncomfortable.well,at least i've informed my mom about it,as in,the teacher asking for my number.

i don't like hiding things from my mom.kayhs,gtg.almost finished kkg.yay!a bit more!wee~bye.

without you,
im an empty space
without you,
there wouldnt be us.

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Thank you Nadhilah!You're the best:) well,argued with my mom,first time in almost 2 years.someone complaint about me.hahah.how hilarious.only not so funny to me,because it made me and my mom fight.happy now?

too noisy.what bullshit is that?other kiddos make friggin asshole noises and you don't say anything.I wasn't even talking bout crap.I was talking bout maths.fish you lahh.okay maybe im a wee bit still mad.*deep breath*-not working.

have been crying last night.woke up with crazy swelling puffy eyes!hahah.made my eyes look so tiny.thank you Azim,you made me feel better.only that it was me, exaggerating the problem:'(

marching!

CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL PARTICIPANTS!

1st place: Kadet Polis
2nd place: Pengakap
3rd place: Puteri Islam
4th place: BSMM(RED CRESCENT SOCIETY)
5th place: St.John Ambulance
6th place: Kadet Remaja Sekolah(KRS)
7th place: Pandu Puteri

well,eventhough we didn't win,we had fun!or at least,i did.hahah.
don't feel like going tuition,can i call in sick?hehe.pretend im not feeling well or something.bad me.

i love you Vanilla.no 'us' moments or time lately.i have been so busy.and then comes interruption.hahah.sorry!i hope we could spend time together,just me and you.no one else.really really really need to talk to you.its seems like i have no clue whatsoever about whats going on in your life.im too wrapped out with my own probs. sorry..i love you Vanilla.

i love:
FAEZ AND AMIRAH.
MAISARA AND NAZREEN.
AZIM AND WILSON.